Why had she been knocking at my door? It happens very often that when we start something new, God firstly shows us how to do this. When we are unaware of cosmic laws, as for instance, of how on the physical world everything has a beginning and an end, then God very soon starts manifesting it. In spiritual jargon, the above situation is referred to as ‘identification’.
When someone is identified with something, this ‘something’ is taken away from him. Precisely this had happened to me: as soon as I thought that I was a super healer, a hard case came to knock at my door…. to break my teeth!!! Continuing my search for ways to help this woman, I tried to tune into my Teacher, but I soon realised that I had lost my connection with Him: my pride had been so big that He was not allowing the channelling of His will through this kind of person. I started to become aware of my mistake and, in the meanwhile, the woman carried on her suicidal action: she just kept on chewing on her sandwich.
I gave up and decided to turn to her essence, so I said: “Imagine that you have a magic wand and that you are given one and only chance to fulfil one of your desires. I have often asked students attending our seminars on Karmic Healing: “What do you think this woman wished?” No one has ever been able to provide the right answer.
With shamanic, psychological and other healing methods this woman could have been healed: she was really in a great deal of pain. Yet, her wish was far beyond the imaginable. Unable to stand up after even her fifth attempt, she answered: “Look how difficult it is for me to be able to stand on my legs. My joints are totally destroyed by my weight and I would really like to have surgery for my knee and hip joints”. I started to feel really unwell: headache, dizziness and tiredness immediately got hold of me. I realised that I had lost, that I had not been able to hep this person. The only thought that kept me in the here and now was that I should not judge even people’s ignorance. “Don’t judge! Don’t judge!!!” My inner voice was striking as a hammer in my head.
(To be continued: Arrogance and ignorance!!...)